MY FAMILY FOOTBALL TEAM

my sister Elena she is a hand full. Elena is one of those girls who you have to love even if you think you might not Elena could be sweetest person and in one moment she could throw a Hess fit. Elena is my only fully blooded sibling .i have 25 brothers and sisters and only 3 comes from my mom.elena is the most interesting person i ever meet she is very weird.my brother Steven is who i look up to,he is the first person in my family to go to college.Steven could sometimes get on my last nerve because he swear he know everything.my other brother Miguel is another story is 22 years old and asks his little sister for a dollar i hate it because he is suppose to be a role model to his younger sibling but instead he lives off of a dollar a day and messes with everyone in the house.i just recently meet my other two sibling from my father side.one is 24 hes name is William and the other is 23 her name is Elizabeth.they are really cool people.the first time we meet them was at my sister gradation on June 25,2008.i still need to meet the other 19 siblings.i believe my family could make like 3 football teams when were together.http://www.nydailynews.com/sports/football/

thehttp://http://www.fdrlibrary.marist.edu/erbio.html PROJECT LIFE living above the influence

ya that's where i live its a constant battle.why do i say this well because i been through so much and i always ask myself what if i never had to wonder if i will get shot at the front of my door.i have been tempted to do so much but i have defeated it and feel proud of myself for doing so. the kids who i grew up with are either in jail,doing drugs,or dead.i use to play with these kids now i pass them like i never knew them .i don't really recognize them anymore .many of the kids had much potential and turned to a life of nothingness.In my building kids who drop out of high school would make a joke saying they graduated from 953 academy.which is the building number i live at so they are basically graduated for a life of constant failure.i do believe they can change but i been to the other side and no one is planning to change at this point in time.http://www.fdrlibrary.marist.edu/erbio.html

america next top model

one of my hobby i love to do is model.for about forever i dreamed about becoming a model.my mother one of my inspiration gave up so much to take me to auditions and modeling shows. One thing that i admire the most from my mom is her sense of belief that i will succeed in what i want to do and money is not really a problem.She taught me to chase my dream and never give up.One of my mother saying is" no viva la Vida De otro" meaning don't live the life of another.I never really understand what she meant by that but i understand now. She means don't follow what your friends or what other people say its cool you have your own conscious and you know whats right from wrong.I always go about this saying "you are who you hang out with"i believe this with all my heart.i believe if a person hangs out with a bad seed then he starts to slowly change into a bad seed if a person hangs out with a good seed then she would have a brighter future.I have done a couple of shows and won my most recent in July.I have gotten many email from different shows like Zack and Cody and Hannah Montana i also have a casting for high school musical 4.I love modeling when i model i feel like I'm in a different world where i rule the planet and every one admires me .I hope to one day land a big role because the first thing i plan to do with the money is give some to Saint Jude's hospital and to the Breast Cancer fundraiser.i want to make a difference in the world ,when i grow up like Angelina Joli i plain to adopt a kid from a third world country.just knowing that i at least saved one kid from hunger or aid or other kinds of diseases i feel a sense of accomplishment.http://www.cwtv.com/shows/americas-next-top-model11

Miguel and Lily kitty

As of right now i am in my cousins Miguel and lily house. i love spending time with them because they are so hilarious.they are crazy and predictable he he.Miguel has just thrown lily off of his bed because he needed space to rest very predictable don't you think .Miguel and i have been through a lot but we always got through it. we always tell each other personal things and know we wont judge each other.me and Miguel did not always get along we use to fist fight when we were younger and now we are the best of friend.Lily is 11 years old and already is a clown like her brother.Lily had a kitty name Kitty how has been with her through much pity Kitty is old and restless and looks like a rhinoceros.lily kitty has one eye what a surprise it hasn't died lily kitty was stab and drag and still lays on her bed looking very dry.lily kitty is 5 years old and never had a cold.http://images.google.com/images?um=1&hl=en&q=tom+and+jerry

DENTISTRY

hello today has been an awesome day . Me and my best friend finally resolved our problems and now we are cool again.Me Dilena and Niki had a little girls day out it was so crazy.Niki was talking to a plant telling it that she wished she was its girlfriend and the plant would be her new The THING he he.Well anyways we went to the dentist with Delina and she took forever and three years to come out meanwhile me and Niki were just doing crazy stuff and people were just staring at us.I am glade that we resolve our problem because that gives me one less thing to stress about this year.We also went engagement ring shopping for you know who .The ring we pick is so beautiful its elegant and sophisticated at the same time.I can not Wait until she gets marry because i would really like to see her happy for like the first time in her life that i have known her.Even though she would not be partying with her friends in the near future (just playing).I also found out that i have a soccer game tomorrow and am furriest because we haven't practice once this week with the team and i am scare no one would show up because everyone thinks the game is next week not tomorrow and we would have to forfeited. i hope GOD is on ourside tommorow.until next time .http://images.google.com/images?um=1&hl=en&q=dentist

THE THING

Today i feel that i am losing my best friend and she doesn't even care.I feel she would chose "The thing" before she even thinks of me. I have known this girl for about 4 years and she has known "the thing" for a year. she is always tells me "ooh ya we going to hang out today i promise" and i look at her with a face of discontent because i know the possible result but i still have a bite of faith that maybe it will happen ,but she ends up disappointing me over and over again. We do not talk like we use to we have become distance and neither of us cares to fix it.The problem needs 2 to fix it and will only work if it was two."The thing" stay following her he never let her breathe i sometime begin to think if"The thing" has a life.i don't mean for her to pick and choose because i know she loves both of us but is it so much to ask when you want to spend at least 4 Min's with your best friend with out "the thing" coming to mess it all up.i haven't talk to her in about 2 month and god can only guess why.i just have one question for my best friend did you really mean what you always told me?http://www.babrain.com/branding/uploaded_images/MessinWithSasquatch_3-782940.jpg

the wierdest day of my life( ms apostulo this is my 1st post)

Today was been the weirdest day of my life i feel as if something was taking over my body.I can not take away the urge of feeling bad its driving me insane.I have just hurt someone dear to my life without meaning i feel as if something evil was entered my body. I'm trying real hard not to think of anything bad but i just can not help it.I am a very religious person(catholic) i believe so much in my god .I know i am not crazy i know i am fighting an inner demon i cannot help it it wont leave me alone the only way i can block it for a while is straying my mine from the world.
My breathing has become increasingly high and my heart is beating so fast that i can not even feel it i can just feel a strain as if someone is trying to rip it out.I do not know why this is happening to me ,i know im not crazy.I never wish death on anybody until today thats all i can think about nothing else its driving me insane.This is not me i am fighting an inner demon and i dont know how to stop it.People might think im insane for writing other might not ,but all i can say is it isnt me.
If you ask anyone i know i am the most sweetest person.I would give my last dollar for someone in needed.I am the type of person who thinks about others before herself.I can face this challenge and i know i will.i have been under a lot of stress this year i am thinking to much about my future and forgetting about the present.The begining of school this year has been on a rocky point to me and i feel sometimes that i will fail in my last year of h.s maybe thats my fear and i wont let it come true.http://www.adventchristianwear.com/members/638163/uploaded/Commandment_Design_black.jpg