Today was been the weirdest day of my life i feel as if something was taking over my body.I can not take away the urge of feeling bad its driving me insane.I have just hurt someone dear to my life without meaning i feel as if something evil was entered my body. I'm trying real hard not to think of anything bad but i just can not help it.I am a very religious person(catholic) i believe so much in my god .I know i am not crazy i know i am fighting an inner demon i cannot help it it wont leave me alone the only way i can block it for a while is straying my mine from the world.
My breathing has become increasingly high and my heart is beating so fast that i can not even feel it i can just feel a strain as if someone is trying to rip it out.I do not know why this is happening to me ,i know im not crazy.I never wish death on anybody until today thats all i can think about nothing else its driving me insane.This is not me i am fighting an inner demon and i dont know how to stop it.People might think im insane for writing other might not ,but all i can say is it isnt me.
If you ask anyone i know i am the most sweetest person.I would give my last dollar for someone in needed.I am the type of person who thinks about others before herself.I can face this challenge and i know i will.i have been under a lot of stress this year i am thinking to much about my future and forgetting about the present.The begining of school this year has been on a rocky point to me and i feel sometimes that i will fail in my last year of h.s maybe thats my fear and i wont let it come true.http://www.adventchristianwear.com/members/638163/uploaded/Commandment_Design_black.jpg
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